…something in a sermon I was listening to recently. It’s by this pastor called Michael Todd of Transformationchurch in Tulsa, Okhlahoma. Lol yes, Tulsa of Chandler fame. #F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I have been listening to a lot of sermons actually. Obi’m traveled for work for about 2 months and in a bid to hear another adult voice in the house- or just another voice that didn’t start each sentence with a shrill, “MUMMY!”-, I listened to many sermons. I’m trying to build my faith daily and just you know, self-analyse and gain a deeper revelation of myself, purpose, God’s will, especially in the wake of this type of peculiar year, you know? The simple things. Lol. So anyway this sermon, the preacher said “why don’t you trust God but trust yourself?” Your choices, your decisions? You trust yourself implicitly, implacably, he said…when your track record shows you really have no business trusting you. LOOOOL. Lemme be, pastor!!!

You have gone your own way, made FOOLISH choices, put yourself in awkward positions, thrown away opportunities, you’ve burned bridges and destroyed the boats that would have rowed you back to shore after. Hell, you’ve poisoned the water on which both boat and bridge were built, ruined chances. In many ways, you have no business putting your life in your hands… yet you will not let another lead. You will not let Him take over the boat, determined to reach your Titanic end by your willful, reckless, independent self.

“Why?”

I asked myself.