W: So, it’s 2018.
W: 😏
W: Who are we seeing?
W: “As per bor-freh”
F: Na real who are we seeing?😂
F: It’s tough in these streets
F: So many boys, so few men. Good men.
W: I actually understand that
W: Years ago my friend Tony told me, good girls always get found. and I don’t think he meant it in that empty way we measure girls as good or bad. He meant more like good people eventually get their come uppance or whatever the term is *moments you need an Namdi, he’d have had the exact term*
F: I strongly believe this, to be honest.
F: I’m not too worried about it, I don’t think. The subconscious pressure is a given and that’s the true battle. But I’m just focused on God, developing character, friendships and my gifts.
F: God sees my heart/desires. He’ll give them to me when it’s time.
F: And that’s always perfect.
W: 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
W: “We will now take a seed offering, choir”
F: 😂
F: 😂
W: Lol preaching
W: I think what you said about the subconscious pressure being a true battle is true and it’s wonderful that you are able to look at things honestly and objectively.
W: Even genuine inquiries (like mine *ahem*), are pressure. Keep up what you’re doing, just seeing you blossom with all the things you’re working, I know you’re doing things right for sure, and God will give you someone that grows all these gifts and this better character that you have now. And when it happens it will be so much better than if you had stayed in your comfort zone and focused all your energy on ‘finding someone’.
W: If that makes sense
F: Fully understand, no worries.
F: It does, it makes perfect sense.😊
F: Thanks my Wends!❤❤
W: Welcome. I think my life is such a testament to how God can show up and make up for what we think of as lost time.
W: Now I’m so thankful I got married when I did because for one thing, my life before CJ for me was very full and rich. I did a lot of things I wanted to, I developed a lot of skills that have been fundamental to my marriage and I just feel like I didn’t miss out on anything I wanted to do. Lol I wanted to get married at 23 when I was younger. And have my first child at 25. *Cries in stress, missing youth and resentment*
W: “This God, His ways are perfect.”- Psalm 18:30
F: “Cries in stress…” 😂😂
F: His ways really are!!!

Conversations.

A lot of men and women are in this phase. The “When Lord?!” phase, and I totally understand it. If you scroll just a little further down/backwards on this blog, you’ll find evidence of my life at my When Lord. It’s a prelude to hell, beloved. Lol that thing is tough to deal with. I realise now just how true my words on Psalm 18:30, “THIS GOD, HIS WAYS ARE PERFECT.” Believe that. Trust His timing, hard as it is and enjoy the process…because that’s all you have. It’s Ithaca the journey is the destination. And God’s timing, reasons, ways are often unpredictable and possibly painful, but I find that when I look back , they are perfectly what I need.

Trust.